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MY SCALE MADE ME CRY!

I have been working with a naturopath for several weeks. The first thing she did was take blood for some very detailed tests to determine 1) what foods are causing bad reactions in my body and 2) was I born with this sensitivity, or did I develop it?

I felt I was eating very healthy. Imagine my surprise when I discovered that many of the foods I thought were good for me, were actually causing inflammation and pain in my joints! Some examples: almonds, hazelnuts, quinoa, spelt, oranges and cranberries.

One month ago, after the test results came in, my naturopath designed an eating program for me and suggested some supplements that could help. I have been following that program 100% for an entire month and last Saturday was my check-in to see how I was doing.

Keep in mind that I have done my weekly workouts with my trainer and training partner each Friday, I started Aquafit classes at my gym, and I am walking regularly. I promised myself this time I would not be a slave to the scale, so I didn’t weigh myself at home or at the gym the entire month.

I have felt huge differences since I began my new eating program. The pain in my joints is gone and my clothes are getting looser. Based on past experiences with diets, I felt that I had lost at least 30 lbs. in the past month (fast weight loss in the beginning has always been my history).

Well, when the naturopath weighed me, she said I had lost 6 lbs. of fat and she was really happy with that!. Of course, my old DIEt mentality kicked in, and I had to ask how many total lbs. I have lost by the scale. The answer was…. 17 lbs.

17 lbs.?  In a month?  Hell, I’ve lost that in a week in the past! I was not happy! On the drive home, I burst into tears in my car.  Logically, I realize that 4 lbs. per week is amazing, but I set myself up, mentally, by expecting the loss should be 30 lbs. or higher.

I am working through the emotional impact this has had on me, but I wonder if you have experienced this before?  Have you set yourself up with high expectiations, then come crashing down when you don’t meet them?  How did you work through this?

I would love to hear your story…..

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THE WEIGHT BETWEEN MY EARS… IS CAUSING THE WEIGHT ON MY ASS!

 I saw a video on Facebook today. It was made by a young man named Matt Dias. Matt weighed around 495 lbs. when he was 16 and has lost 270 lbs. over 6 years. In the video, he showed the world his body and all his excess skin. He works out very hard, but that cannot tighten skin. 

 Matt was very scared to post that video, but he said, “I can’t preach body positivity and hide who I am.” I am so proud of Matt for loving and accepting his body as it really is! He is a beautiful human being! I needed to learn from him…

 I also feel it is wrong to preach body positivity while hiding, but instead of making a video to tell people what I was going through, I just slowly, but surely, stopped preaching. I have completely stopped blogging and the posts on my Facebook fan page have become sporadic.

 I have been hiding! I felt that if I didn’t have a “positive” message, no one would want to hear from me. I thought if I stumbled, I would have let everyone down, and no one wants to hear from a “loser”, right?

 Today, inspired by Matt Dias, I am “exposing” myself to the world. It is long overdue…

 Late last spring, a person I loved, a person I moved to another country to be with (for life I thought), decided she no longer wanted me. I was devastated! I moved back home, but I never shared what happened except with a few very, very close friends and confidantes. There are people in my life, to this day, that do not know what happened.

 I wasn’t aware of it while I was living it, but looking back now, I can see that I fell into a deep, dark depression, which I am, just now, slowly climbing back from. I cried every day at the slightest provocation. I still cry more often than I would like, but now it is usually triggered by someone asking me a question about my relationship, as opposed to some random song on the radio or a tv show.

 To “numb” the pain, I ate. I also drank almost every day. Not to excess, just one or two drinks to take the edge off so I could sleep, I told myself.

 I made food my best friend and told myself I really needed that friend because I had no one else. What a lie! I hid in my little basement suite and rarely emerged except for work or family obligations. I put on a happy face in public. In private, I shut out everyone that cared for me because I felt I had let them down.

 Fortunately for me, I have some very special people in my life. My oldest son does not understand the changes I have made in my life, but he and his family have supported me through everything. One friend shares her weekly workout with me. Another two call me on a regular basis to talk and to encourage me. One friend grabbed my hand one day and walked with me into an event full of my peers, who I was ashamed to face. And then there are the two gentlemen who support me by gently, but firmly, kicking my butt when I need it. They smile and nod when I make excuses why I can’t be at my scheduled appointments, but really, they know bullshit when they smell it! All these people believed I would find my way back to life one day even when I didn’t believe it. They stood by me, waiting for that day, no matter how hard I tried to push them away! I love you all!

 Now to get down to some exposing… In the time since I returned to Canada, I had regained over 100 lbs. of the 250 lbs. I lost previously. It is not a pretty story, but it is my reality. I am not hiding any longer! There are people that will turn away from me because of my truth, and I am okay with that. I no longer feel the need to please everyone. I did get back to my healthy way of eating. I stopped all drinking and started moving my body on a daily basis. As a result, I am losing weight again, but I will handle it differently this time.

 I have decided not to share about my weight loss on my Phit and Phabulicious! fan page. From personal experience, I believe there is far too much emphasis put on weight! Instead of weight loss, my page will focus on making healthy lifestyle choices and moving your body so you can “feel” Phit and Phabulicious! We all deserve to feel good, no matter what size we are! If you have questions about my weight (or anything else for that matter), message me and I will reply to you personally.

 Now that I have emerged from hiding, I commit to blog weekly, even if it is only to say “Hi! I can’t think of anything to write about this week”. If you would like to read about a specific topic, please send your suggestion to https://www.facebook.com/PhitAndPhabulousDeb or deb@debrondeau.com.

 I do not yet understand why the universe sent me down the path I have been traveling for the past year, but I will keep moving, even if some days I only take baby steps. One day it will become clear; I know there must be a very good reason.

 Are you fighting your own battle right now? Have you overcome huge odds to get where you are today? Won’t you share your story? Look at 22 year old Matt Dias. I’m sure when he posted his video, he never imagined it would bring a 61 year old Canadian woman to tears and inspire her to finally come out of hiding.

 You never know who you might touch and inspire! There is someone waiting to hear your story…

 

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MY FIRST VISIT TO THE FOOD BANK

Did the title of my blog catch your eye? Were you shocked to think that an employed person might visit the food bank?

Who do you think frequents the food bank? If you thought it was only drug users or people “abusing” the system, you like me are out of touch with reality!

My employer, Hub International Insurance Brokers, is a supporter of various community projects through their initiative called “Hub Gives” and again this year, Hub asked employees to volunteer time at a local food bank, then generously gave us paid time off from work while we volunteered! Check out the picture of the amazing group of people I worked alongside on my volunteer day at the Surrey Food Bank!

I remember watching a news story several years ago where people in line for the food bank were interviewed by the media. One man said he was there getting food so he could spend more money on Christmas presents for his children. Previously, I often donated items to the food bank, but that interview completely turned me against the people “abusing” our food banks. From that day forward, I only donated baby items. I told myself I would only help “those that could not help themselves”. What I saw at the food bank the day I volunteered was shocking to me!  Contrary to my belief, there were no drug users in the line, just families and employed persons trying to make ends meet. 

I also had a picture in my mind of people lining up every day to grab the “freebies” being offered. What I found out is that you must register before you can use the food bank to prove you are in need and you must re-register every six months to prove your continued need. On top of that, you can only come once every two weeks and only on your specified day. The food that is distributed will only last about four (4) days so no one is living high on the hog off the food they receive at the food bank; this is merely a way to try and make ends meet.

If you line up at the Surrey Food Bank, you will pass through an area where you receive a hamper (really a plastic bag filled with various canned goods). Next you go through the bread/pastry area and finally down a line of tables where various vegetables, salads, chips and juices are available, depending on what was donated that week. You must show proof that you are a registered client at each stop along the tables and the amount of food you receive varies depending on the size of your family and the abundance or lack of donations received.

I worked in two areas. First, I was at the food tables in charge of distributing raw parsnips and beets. I didn’t expect to be the least popular stop on the line! If you’re truly hungry, you’ll eat anything, right? That was what I used to believe.

The lady next to me was in charge of heirloom tomatoes and a lot of people had no idea how wonderful those are; they assumed there was something wrong with the tomatoes because they were not perfectly round and smooth. I was totally surprised how many people passed up raw vegetables in favour of the bags of chips and boxes of juice that were offered further down the line!

My second work experience at the food bank was in the area where the hampers were prepared. Depending on the size of your family, you got 1-3 cans each of soup, vegetables, chili-type meals, condiments, protein (in the form of canned tuna, salmon, ham or chicken), boxes of macaroni and cheese and packages of those dry noodles with flavoured sauce.

What really hit me while preparing those hampers was how fortunate I am to be able to choose what groceries I buy! How would you feel if you couldn’t decide what you were going to eat tonight? Yes, it is better than eating nothing, but I was very aware that I would have felt a lack of control.

On the news you sometimes hear about people being abusive to those trying to help them. I did not meet anyone like that; everyone I encountered was friendly, polite and very grateful for the help! The regular volunteers were spectacular as well! Such a compassionate group of people. I saw them treat each and every client as though they were family and friends.

If you follow me on Facebook, you know I am a huge proponent of getting rid of GMOs (Genetically Modified Organisms). A lot of food I saw at the food bank the day I volunteered contained GMOs (like a lot of the food in your local grocery stores). Obviously I would like to see that stop; however, I have conflicting emotions because many people could go without food.

What to do? I would like to encourage people to upgrade the food they donate to the food bank. Going forward, I commit to only donate food that is free of GMOs.

Have you like me ever donated old items from your cupboard? Several volunteers spend their time sorting donations and culling out stale-dated items and cans that are badly dented. I was delighted to learn that no outdated or poor quality food ever reaches the clients.

I hope I live to see the day when there is no longer a need for food banks, but in the meantime, let’s do everything we can to help the working poor feed their families the best possible food!

Perhaps you could donate a bit of time to help out at your local food bank? Christmas is coming. During the holidays, people in need are heavy on our minds. This year, let’s not forget the food banks when Christmas is over. Make it a habit to donate more often and all year round!

 

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YOU’RE SICK? NO COMPASSION HERE – GET BACK TO WORK!

At work today, my stomach was very upset, but I continued to work.  The only sign that anything was wrong was the garbage can next to my leg.  When I realized I was going to throw up, I grabbed that garbage can and headed for the washroom.

I was violently ill and the back of my head felt like it might explode!  When I finished, I washed up, rinsed my mouth, tied up the garbage bag and carried it out to the dumpster.  Then I went back to work.

If I had been aware of another person becoming ill at work, I would have encouraged, no insisted, that they go home and take care of themselves.  Why do I not show that kind of compassion to myself?

I can hear my mother’s voice now…  “If you’re too sick to go to school, you’re too sick to watch tv (or read or play with your dolls or (you fill in the blank)”.

Growing up, I took those words to heart and I built on them.  I subconciously believed that if I showed compassion for myself, I was weak.  Strong people do not let hardships stop them; they persevere no matter what.

Then I took that one step further and decided that accepting help was also a sign of weakness.  I believe I must do everything myself.  Asking for or accepting help is weak.  If I am strong, hard-working and self-reliant I will be more loveable.  Right?  People will see what a good girl I am and they will love me.

On my drive home from work tonight, I realized that the little girl inside me was sobbing.  She didn’t feel good.  She just wanted someone to hold her and tell her she mattered.  When people at work tried to show me compassion, asking if I needed to go home, I completely dismissed her feelings and said NO, I am fine, I will keep working.  

Also tonight, a friend offered to do some extra work in the morning so I could rest and I said “BS, I can sit and work at a computer, I did it today”.  And it’s true, I am able to do the work, but am I turning down the offer of help only to prove how strong I am?  Did I think to ask the little girl inside me what she needed?

Tonight, I am going to warm up some broth, get into my PJs, my fuzzy pink robe and my warm slippers.  Then I am going to relax, sip my soup and tell that little girl I do care how she feels and I am sorry for dismissing her feelings today and every day in the past.  I am going to hug her and tell her I love her and promise to be more caring and thoughtful in the future.  And I am going to follow through with that promise!

No, I won’t be perfect, but I will keep working at it and I will get better in time.

Do you sometimes have difficulty showing compassion for yourself?  What false beliefs are you hiding behind?  What if today, you make a promise to do better and then you follow through with that promise.

Give yourself a hug and some love…. YOU ARE WORTH IT!

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MOMMY, WHAT’S WRONG WITH THAT LADY’S LEGS?!

Do you have a body part you wish you could change?  More than one?  The parts I dislike the most are my legs; the excess skin at the top from my 250 lb. weight loss and the swellings around my ankles.  This  swelling is even more exaggerated when I am not eating pure since most processed foods contain huge amounts of sodium.

The photo below on the left is a picture of my legs about 2 weeks ago when I was at the peak of my emotional eating.  The photo on the right was taken immediately following my Purium 10 day Transformation Cleanse.  Not only did I lose 31.2 lbs., I lost 3 inches from my calves and 2 inches from my ankles!  Can you see the drastic difference in only 10 days?!

Today marked the end of Week 1 of my Purium 20 day Continuation program.  My energy continues to soar and all cravings have completely disappeared.  Even better – my scale confirms an additional 4.6 lbs. shed this week, all while adding lots of healthy foods to my eating!  Stay tuned for next week’s update…

Which body part would you most like to transform?  Would you be interested in attending one of the weekly Purium Healthy Happy Hours where you can sample the Purium drinks, hear other success stories and get all your questions answered?  Message me at http://debrondeau.com/contact.  Then when you are ready, I have a $50 gift card you can use toward your first purchase.

Let’s raise a “green” glass to your improved health and your ultimate weight loss success!

 

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THE PURIUM RESULTS ARE IN!

I woke up this morning stressing about having to weigh myself and post the results for everyone in the world to see.  As you know if you followed my daily blogs, I was experiencing evidence of weight loss like better-fitting clothes, increased energy and shrinking boobs, but I didn’t really feel lighter.

The Purium Tranformation says it will reset your metabolism, kill your cravings and increase your energy.  And as a side effect of this program, they tell you to expect to lose 5 to 20 lbs.  The main focus is on health not weight loss.

As I stepped up to the scale this morning, I was praying in my head “please let me lose 10 lbs. I don’t expect to lose 20. That is too much to ask.  Just please, please, please let me lose 10 lbs.

Imagine my shock when I stepped onto the scale and it said I had lost………….. 31.20 lbs.!!

Next I took my measurements and they were down as well: 2.75 inches from my chest, 2.25 inches from my waist and 3 inches from my hips.

Today I begin the Purium 20 day Continuation program.  I will blog weekly to share the feelings and results I experience on this next step.  Continuation is the stage where you begin adding more regular foods back into your eating routine so you learn to eat healthy without ever regaining your lost weight.

Have you been wanting to shed a stubborn 5-10 lbs. of weight?  Maybe you have 20, 50 or more pounds to shed?  Purium can assist you with that.

When you’re ready, I have a $50 Purium gift card with your name on it.  Why wait?  Don’t put it off any longer!  Isn’t it your turn to experience dramatic changes in your life?  If you said yes, contact me at http://debrondeau.com/contact or via Facebook at https://facebook.com/PhitAndPhabulous Deb. 

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$50 GIFT FOR YOU – TRANSFORMATION DAY 10

Today is the final day of my 10 Day Transformation cleanse with the new product I discovered.  Tomorrow morning I will weigh-in and take my measurements.  I hope to have achieved the “side effect” of 5 to 20 lbs. of weight loss, but I have experienced so many other benefits, I am happy no matter what the scale says.

This product claimed it would kill my cravings, reset my metabolism and give me increased energy.  It definitely killed the cravings very early on; by Day 2 or 3 they were gone!

I believe my metabolism has increased.  In spite of the fact I am eating nutrient-dense super foods, I sometimes get hungry after 2 hours.  To compare, In 2009 when I weighed 430 lbs. and was dieting, I would go 5 hours and more between meals without getting hungry.  My metabolism had pretty much shut down.

And the difference in my energy level after only 10 days is startling!  I am working out again and able to bound up stairs much quicker.

I waited to share the name of the product until I had used it and proved to myself that it really did everything it claimed.  Now I am excited to tell you about Purium Health Products.  David Sandoval, the creator of Purium products, has spent almost two decades seeking out pure and premium sources of diverse superfoods.  It was the fact that Purium products contain no GMOs that first caught my eye.  Is eating healthy as important to you as it is to me?

You don’t have to be overweight to use Purium.  There are products for anyone who wants to awaken their body and have it thrive like never before.  What is your goal?  There are products for weight loss, anti-aging, boosting sports & fitness performance and immune support to name a few.

If you are ready to take the first step towards your goal, I have a gift for you; a gift card for $50 off your first Purium order.  If you are committed to your health, you can contact me on my website at http://debrondeau.com/contact/ or Personal Message me on Facebook at https://facebook.com/PhitAndPhabulousDeb.

Although I am finished the 10 day Transformation, this is not the end.  Next I will begin the 20 day Weight Loss Continuation program.  This is where I reintroduce more healthy foods into my diet while continuing to lose weight and gain health.  I expect to lose as much in the next 20 days as I lost in the 10 days of the Transformation.  I will check in with you each week and let you know how I am doing.

Don’t delay!  Reach out today and start the journey to regaining your health using nutrient-dense superfoods, slow-burning carbs and highly digestible proteins that are all Organic, Vegan, live, raw and non-GMO!

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EATING IN THE RAW – TRANSFORMATION DAY 9

I have been taking raw food “uncooking” classes and I am working on my designation as a Raw Food Nutritionist so it makes sense that I will incorporate as much raw food as possible into my eating program in the coming months.  

You do not need to eat 100% raw to derive the major benefits of this lifestyle.  And no, eating raw does not mean eating salad all day every day.  Just today I learned how to make raw Pad Thai and raw Key Lime Pie.  It looked and tasted amazing!

I have done some reading on how the current program changes following the 10 day transformation cleanse. I am excited that I will be alternating between food days and cleanse days so there will be a full range of foods available to eat again!

Tomorrow (Thursday) is Day 10, the final day of the cleanse.  Thursday night in my blog I will reveal all about the product I have been using.  Then on Friday night I will share with you the results I achieved with this cleanse.

Lost pounds and inches are wonderful, but as you’ve read this past week, there are many other benefits to be realized.

I am very grateful to those that have come on this journey with me.  Thank you for your support!

 

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FINISH LINE IN SIGHT – TRANSFORMATION DAY 8

Only 2 days left in my transformation cleanse.  I should be reading about the next step in this process.  I should be shopping for all the foods I will begin reintroducing to my diet.  I should be.  So why am I sitting in front of the computer doing nothing?

Do you ever let fear of the unknown stop you from taking that first step?  

I am excited about finishing the cleanse and getting into a more normal eating routine, but a bit fearful at the same time because I don’t know what to expect.

A very wise mentor of mine told me that it takes a lot of work to move forward, but no effort to go back.  It is like being on a slippery slope; if you do nothing, you will slide back where you started.

Well, going back to where I started is NOT an option!  So it’s time to do something.  

What are you putting off in your life?  You don’t need to take giant steps; start with small steps, but just get moving!  Those small steps will add up.  Soon your goal line will be in sight!

What are you waiting for?  There’s no time like the present!  Get up and get going now….

 

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INCREDIBLE SHRINKING BREASTS! – TRANSFORMATION DAY 7

When you lose weight what is the first physical change you become aware of?  

For many women it is the breasts that go first.  This is alarming to some women because they equate size with sexual attractiveness.

Today on day 7 of my 10 day transformation, I have more proof my new program is working,,, my bra is fitting better.

It varies greatly depending on the woman and her genetics, but breasts can be comprised of 56% or more fat.  Is it any wonder they shrink when you are losing fat?

I couldn’t find any information on who coined the phrase, but I truly believe that “more than a mouthful is a waste”.

I also believe that any sign you are removing excess fat from your body should be welcomed!  Would you rather be heavy with large breasts or fit with smaller breasts?

Begin changing your outlook today.  Instead of cursing your smaller cup size, celebrate two more signs of your success!

 

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