I heard something the other day that reminded me of the year 2009.  That was the year I hit my highest weight of 430 lbs.  Can you imagine walking with an extra 250 lbs. on your shoulders?  The pressure on my knees and feet was excruciating!  I used a cane to walk and I could not stand on my feet for more than 30 seconds at a time.

I traveled to work by public transit, but when I got off the skytrain I was still 2 blocks away.  It was too painful to walk even that short distance so I would cross the street and take a bus.  That particular bus ran every 20 minutes, but sometimes as I was crossing the street the bus would just be pulling away.  I wasn’t able to run, so I would just resolve to sit down and wait 20 minutes for the next bus.

This was frustrating and humiliating to me!  I felt like I was on display; that people from work were passing and wondering why I didn’t just get off my butt and walk!  I would have if I could have!  I didn’t make a conscious decision that I wanted to weigh 430 lbs. so I could be in constant pain!

It is my hope that sharing this story will inspire compassion; compassion for people that are struggling each day.  And don’t we all have our individual struggles?  Let’s not add to each other’s burdens…

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  1. Mahva Jones says:

    Hi, Deb. Thank you for sharing this with everyone.

    What’s most amazing to me is that, even in that state, you didn’t give up on yourself. I’m sure that it felt as though you had.

    If you had given up, you’d not be here today. You’d not be here sharing your truth and giving others the strength to share theirs, even if with themselves.

  2. Deb says:

    You are very welcome Mahva! I want every woman to know there is hope; they can get back to health no matter their age or circumstance. Your message is an inspiration to me. Thank you!

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